Thursday, March 05, 2009

Value, Worth

In my morning devotions I read, "An idol is anything that takes the place of God."

It hit home.

I am a fine example of what happens when you raise a child without making them feel like they have some kind of value. Fifty years later I am still trying to overcome my feelings of worthlessness. Yet in my head I know my value, in my head I know my worth.

But sitting in a tiny corner of my heart the opposite whispers to me.

In the quiet background of everything I do I sense its pull, "No one cares, you don't matter." And no matter how hard I try to ignore it, it's there. Just there. And there. And I know that it confuses people and sways their opinions of me because they can sense it too.

And it has allowed me to make wrong choices in my past.

And it takes the place of God.

An idol. Sin.

And it is annoying as heck.


RR Mama said...

You are only human my friend. Everyone has that time in their life, more than once. Just know that you a child of God. He loves you and he will keep seeing you through. You are forgiven by His grace.

Nadine said...

I think many of us feel that way at times. But in reality it so much the opposite. Look around and see all those who love you. It will quite that voice.

Merrily Down the Stream said...

I know exactly that voice. And I hope I never install that voice into my children.

Staci said...

psalm 139:13-17

13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.

17 How precious are your thoughts about me,[b] O God.
They cannot be numbered!
18 I can’t even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!

Remember, you were created by Him for a purpose, and he knew you in your mothers womb....when you think you arent worth anything to anyone, you are to HIM.

You have a unique purpose on this earth....

nancygrayce said...

I had a great childhood and I still have "issues".....You're great and worth a whole lot, just ask the Capt.!